Things I Learned on my Summer Vacation…

autism and play

Tongue in cheek of course. It's that proverbial crap back to school essay.  This summer has been a challenge.  I decided it was best to stop writing for a bit.  To see if I missed it. Sometimes you need to step away from what you love to really appreciate it. It's this space that I love.  The quiet glow of the screen.  The looking back … [Read more...]

a tale of two brothers and a mom who may have cried while washing dishes tonight

autism and play

So, yeah.  Something profound happened this evening. I mean, far more profound than that time Moose walked in the grocery store without tantrums or a fight.  Far more profound than his first sentence. Let me back up first. So, this kid goes and graduates kindergarten this afternoon.  To celebrate far away from the hellish sensory … [Read more...]

Twas’ the night before kindergarten graduation…

homeschool, IEPs, and autism

So, tomorrow. The end of an era.  Our little Moose moves on from the cushioned world of early the big leagues. We still have a long road ahead.  This year academics has taken a backseat to plain ol' life skills, and despite a remarkable teacher and a overall incredible school year- this mom is at a crossroads. Where do we go … [Read more...]

Real Food for Beginners: Why You Should Ditch Cereal (Tip #1)

why you should ditch cereal

I grew up on 1980s processed food.  Breakfast most mornings consisted of one of the heavily advertised cereals from my steady diet of Saturday morning cartoons.  We usually had  more than 5 different varieties on top of our fridge at any given time. Now, my children think cereal is the ultimate treat, because they NEVER get it.  I'm up at … [Read more...]

crows, robins, and a metaphor on Mother’s Day

mother's day and autism

A few weeks back, a plump little robin set-up shop to raise her brood on my back fence. She and I have had a few run-ins the past few weeks, mainly when I'm taking out the recycling or garbage. As I carefully opened the gate, she'd fly just a few feet away from her nest, keeping a close eye on me. I would reassure her, I'm just taking out the … [Read more...]

the Metamorphosis

another school year nears its end the tell-tale signs of spring appear and i realize the mother i once was the near-sighted dreamer the teacher is no longer i am stronger than i ever thought possible autism may have chewed me up and spit me out in those early years but never again, will i go against my gut instincts for the … [Read more...]

Why I am homeschooling…

John Taylor Gatto quotes

After a long and difficult process of sleepless nights and agonizing, after long talks with my husband, we've decided to jump the public school ship for our youngest son next year. Monkey will turn 5 just a few weeks before the school year starts.  Many parents opt for "red-shirting" (which is holding a child back a year).  My husband is in … [Read more...]

Confessions of a Recovered Junk Foodie

confessions of a recovered junk foodie

I often joke that I was raised on four food groups: gluten, dairy, sugar, and antibiotics. Antibiotics should actually be second in that list, because I was SICK all the time. I want to give a bit of my history here, because given a few new projects I am embarking on, I need to come clean. For the first 30 years of my life, I ate absolute … [Read more...]

the mother I want my children to remember…

When Moose was shy of seven month old, after losing my dad and grandmother, both quickly and painfully, in the six months after his birth- I felt down and lost and shitty.  All of those things that are painfully raw and human and normal when you become a mother, but coupled with that was this pile of grief that I wasn't dealing with from losing … [Read more...]

Dandelion Green Smoothie Recipe (and wisdom from an ancestor)

dandelion smoothie recipe

So, the other day, while crying over the dead and rather gray looking produce that Chicago winters bring, I headed to the greens section at Whole Paycheck to get kale. It was horrid looking.  Next to it, was a few bunches of dandelion greens, which looked perky and happy. And then it hit me. Yes. Dandelions!  We will make dandelion smoothies. … [Read more...]