counting blessings and inchstones

and real communication is starting.

long ago, i’ve stopped reading milestone charts.
with autism, progress is slow.
it’s in inchstones…

“Moose, where are we going after the field trip?”
“Home.”

“Moose, what do you want to eat?”
“Pasta.”
“Pizza.”
“Toast.”


our conversations are small
black and white

and for the first time, at age four and a half, moose is now putting on
his socks and shoes.
and fully undressing himself.

and slowly, three word phrases are emerging…
“take a bath”
“brush my teeth”

and my moose is no longer crawling up stairs,
but scaling them like a real big kid
sometimes without hands

and over the past two weeks, stellar reports are coming home from school and therapy.
“amazing day!”
“best PT session yet”
“he’s moved up to PECS level 2!”  {by level 4, kids are usually talking in sentences}

something is changing
i see it in his face
the way he fights back with his brother
the way he’s really starting to watch us
study us even

even still

it’s so easy to feel despair
when i see a child moose’s age in the grocery store
chatting away with their mother
begging for cookies
and sometimes those mothers hush those kids
wave them off as they chat on their smartphones

and sometimes,
i wish to pull those mothers aside
and whisper in their ears…
“don’t take it for granted”

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  1. Mindy says:

    Yeah!! Great reasons to celebrate! Good for him and good for you. =)

  2. Great job Moose with the reports! Awesome job Nicolette!

    Mrs. Delightful
    http://www.ourdelightfulhome.blogspot.com

  3. Sounds like amazing progress! Yay!
    Jo-Anna

  4. How beautiful Nic…as usual you make me appreciate the little things that we do take for granted with our kids….so happy for Moose…he’s beautiful..btw I’ve been thinking about you this week as hubby shared with me a video of a father whose child has autism and was being mistreated at school. I’m sure you have seen it, it was all over Yahoo…I was cheering for him and so effin’ angry at these teachers…it’s not usual that I even say (effin) but this made me so angry….anyway, sorry for the long message…thanks again…xo
    Lu

  5. I love to hear your progress reports, it makes me feel so happy for you and your beautiful son.

  6. The Mom says:

    Moose is so lucky to have a mom like you….a true advocate fighting for him everyday! Congrats Mom!!!!! Can’t wait to see sweet Moose soon…imagine how much time we would have together without therapy! ;)

  7. Amanda says:

    Yay Moose! Every step is exciting!

  8. Nicolette,
    You give such a wonderful perspective.

    I realize that some days you might just wish for normal.
    Yet, most days you see that blessing..that…is.

    Signed,
    A step-mom of a blessing…that…is.

  9. WOW. What a beautifully written EYE OPENING post. Thank you!

    amy @ whilewearingheels.blogspot.com

  10. Etcetorize says:

    Wonderful news. I’m not even a mother and you’ve got me all choked up. I totally agree with your closing thoughts~

  11. I love this post! As a mother of children who wake up talking and fall asleep talking, I still want to whisper in those mother’s ears.

  12. So happy for you :) What an achievement for you all

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